[It's so much easier for Varian to keep people at arm's length. To keep pleasantries and not let anyone get too close. Even back home, it's only Rapunel's inner circle he really lets his guard down around. It's safer that way.
He'd hope he could focus on the good parts, but he also knows his penchant for wallowing in his all-consuming sadness. It... wouldn't be a good time for him, and he knows he's setting himself up for a lot more pain and heartache down the road. ...But he doesn't move. He doesn't wish differently. He'll take whatever comes from this. Still, that as long as we're here brings a sliver of pain in his heart. Man, this was gonna SUCK, one day. ]
...Yeah. You're right. We've just got to make it matter as long as this place lets us.
[He hasn't got as deep a wellspring of optimism to draw from as Ruby does, but he's trying.]
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He'd hope he could focus on the good parts, but he also knows his penchant for wallowing in his all-consuming sadness. It... wouldn't be a good time for him, and he knows he's setting himself up for a lot more pain and heartache down the road. ...But he doesn't move. He doesn't wish differently. He'll take whatever comes from this. Still, that as long as we're here brings a sliver of pain in his heart. Man, this was gonna SUCK, one day. ]
...Yeah. You're right. We've just got to make it matter as long as this place lets us.
[He hasn't got as deep a wellspring of optimism to draw from as Ruby does, but he's trying.]